Feeling good :)

Physically, that is! Not that I'm feeling bad mentally, but I thought I should specify! Today is one of those days when you realise how bad you must have been feeling before, because of how good you feel now that you are back to normal... does that make sense? So, in a large nutshell, I feel normal. As long as I discount the huge, bloated belly which is not subsiding and the enlarged boobs, then normal it is :)

Of course, there are always the niggles at the back of my mind that pop up when symptoms subside - is everything OK? Am I still pregnant? But those are taking a back seat today because it feels so good to feel normal! I haven't felt sick all day. My stomach actually rumbled loudly without the ever-present nausea for the first time since 6 weeks along. And, did I mention, I'm 10 weeks today! Double figures, at last! (even if my ticker at the top of this page stubbornly refuses to move to the figure 10...)

I also have a bit of energy - I've been for 2 walks today, as the weather has cooled down in anticipation of a huge storm that's on it's way. Admittedly, I could feel my thigh muscles pulsating when I got home after my walks - that's the most exercise I've done since I gave up boot camp before my IVF cycle. And these weren't hikes or anything. Just slow walks around the neighbourhood doing a few errands.

Today was also my last visit to my fertility clinic (for now, at least). My last progesterone shot is tomorrow but, as you might remember, I have to go to the local ER to get it on a Sunday. I spent a few minutes sitting at the clinic today waiting for my shot to stop bleeding and taking it all in. It's over a year since I started going there, which is not long by many couples' standards. It's strange how 'at home' I feel in a public institution where I don't speak the same language as the majority of the staff and patients and in which, when it comes down to it, I wish I had never had to set foot. But I did feel at home there. Now I'm just hoping the next time I need to go back is next Spring when I can visit with my baby to let the staff know that all their hard work and patience was worth it :)

Staying calm...

No new information today. I just wanted to say thank you to everyone for your supportive comments since yesterday. I am doing my best to stay calm and not worry about my possible infection. Of course, I am over-analyzing every little twinge and sensation in my abdomen, but they certainly seem to be focused on my ovary areas, rather than my v-jay-jay... and that's normal when your ovaries are swollen to a completely abnormal size, right ?!  I was also very bloated yesterday evening which had me worried for a while, until I realised it was actually gas - much to the displeasure of my bloke as I 'relieved it' ;)

Anyway, I woke up this morning feeling anxious for the first time this cycle, so lay there and asked myself, 'What would I like to do today?' as recommended by Princess Wahna Bea Mama. I realised that I just wanted to stay home by myself, watch some TV and get some sun on our balcony. I have turned down offers to see a good friend, because I don't want to discuss our cycle today (she is the only person IRL who is following along with our news day by day)... I don't want to voice my concerns about this infection any more. I just want to relax and think positive thoughts :)