Sunday, 13 May 2012

One Year On...

Well, it's exactly a year since this post, the amazing day when I got my first (and possibly only ever) BFP. In some ways it seems like just yesterday and, in others, it feels like a million years ago given how different my life is now in so many ways.

For a start, I now live in a new city, in a different country. I put this first because the move happened first, not because it's more important than the other big change in my life - the arrival of Baby B.

Baby B is now almost 4 months old and it's been an amazing, rollercoaster ride. I say rollercoaster, not because there have been highs and lows, but because the whole ride has been accompanied by screaming, laughter, hysterics... all whilst feeling completely out of control, but loving every minute! Here is Baby B a couple of weeks ago, flashing one of his cutest smiles.

And here he is watching TV, his new favourite thing.

Baby B, my Bloke and I are doing well. Of course, there have been challenges with feeding and sleeping and getting used to the responsibility of taking care of this little fella 24/7, but on the whole, he is a happy, smiley, fairly predictable baby. He is still exclusively breastfed and I'm enjoying the special time together that this gives us. However, I'm also looking forward to a time (not for a good while yet) when I can leave Baby B with my Bloke or another caregiver without having to worry about pumping enough milk for him and him taking it from a bottle (so far, so good on that front).

Anyway, I'm in danger of starting to waffle about all the ins and outs of a day/week/month with Baby B and I have decided that this is not what I want for this blog. This blog was, if not a lifesaver, then certainly a sanity-saver during our infertility diagnosis, treatment and the journey to Baby B. I don't feel it's appropriate for it to turn into a parenting/baby blog, even though I love reading those of my fellow infertility-sufferers who are now parents. So, for now, this blog will be closed. 

Of course, our infertility is not 'over'. We still have 4 frosties sitting in a freezer in China which we apparently have to use by April 2013 because the clinic only keep them for 2 years. This would mean attempting to get pregnant again when Baby B is only just over 1 year old... not sure if this is what we want yet, but no decisions have been made. Maybe we will be content with our one precious boy... Maybe I'll fall pregnant naturally (no expectations of that here!).... Maybe I'll end up back in China next year getting those lovely progesterone shots again and keeping everything crossed for another miracle BFP. Only time will tell...

So goodbye for now and thank you for all your support over the last 18 months :) I'm hoping for the best for all of you and your families.