Thursday 16 June 2011

Starting to feel real :)

Yesterday's OB appointment was a strange, but very joyful experience. I realised that I had not been back to my 'regular' expat hospital since having my HSG and pelvic MRI there about 18 months ago. I opted to have my lap/hyst surgery at a different hospital because of the reputation of the surgeon there and I luckily haven't had any other health issues in the meantime (discounting infertility!).

As I was ushered into the nurse's room for the pre-appt questions and basic checks, I remembered all the times I'd sat there saying that my period was (very) late, but I wasn't pregnant. I remembered all the times the nurses would look enthusiastic and hopeful and say 'Well, you never know!' and then make me take another pregnancy test, just to tell me it was negative. I remembered crying as I told more than one Doctor how long we'd been trying to get pregnant and receiving a variety of answers, including the ever-helpful 'Relax and it'll happen'.

Yesterday was different. The nurse asked why I wanted to see the OB/GYN... 'Just a check-up?' and I got to say those words that still felt fraudulent 'Well, I'm pregnant!'. I got to soak in the congratulations, followed by a concerned frown when I said it was via IVF. Not sure why this was.. maybe they just don't get many IVF patients there. This theory is backed up by the nurse shouting out 'IVF, IVF' several times to the Doctor as she picked up my chart from outside the consultation room I was waiting in!

Anyway, the Doctor was nice. She is German and has the stereotypical brusque nature of this nation, but I appreciate someone who gets to the point and she was kind and listened to me which is all I ask. Before I had time to argue that I didn't want a dozen blood tests and an internal exam after having them so many times at the clinic, she pre-empted me and said she saw no need to repeat all those tests after I'd already been through so much... I was in love with her by now! (Especially as it's a private hospital and I worry about them tacking on extra tests just to make some extra cash.)  She just checked my belly, asked a few questions, explained about the pre-natal tests and got me into the ultrasound room.

I then had my first abdominal ultrasound! It was so ridiculously exciting, not to have to take my pants off... does that make me weird?!  The picture wasn't super clear, but there was definitely a more baby-shaped baby in there! The little one looked more like a baby with a heartbeat, as opposed to a heart attached to a blob!  He/she was also measuring spot-on, at 8 weeks + 5.  The highlight though was hearing the heartbeat. It brought a joyful tear to my eye which I'm sure would have progressed to full-on blubbing, except the technician moved on very quickly, so I was able to recover!

It really was amazing and the combination of that and all the above is finally making this sink in and I'm finally beginning to feel like a real (dare I say, normal?!) pregnant woman. Of course, I know there is still a long way to go and the topic of pre-natal testing is hanging around in the wings, waiting for my Bloke and I to discuss it this weekend. But all in all, yesterday was a good day!

10 comments:

  1. Fantastic... great news about your US :)) It really is real... love to you and your bub xoxo

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  2. Great news! Btw if you want any recommendations for an Obgyn here I can ask around some people at work.

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  3. Thanks ladies :)
    @Kat - that would be great, thanks! I've started doing some online research but some of the info is a bit old...

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  4. I'm so happy to hear everything is well. I would tear up as well, must be an incredible feeling..

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  5. Great day!!! Glad you have an understanding doctor (still wonder why IVF caused that reaction from the nurse) and yay for not taking pants off...not weird at all!!! We've had more than our fair share of "the wand" right?!? Happy for you!

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  6. Wonderful. It must be a lovely feeling to have some reality restored to this pregnancy away from 'the clinic'. Enjoy! Rather envious of your abdo USS and being audible too!

    I wondered which pregnancy book you had? You said it was good? I fancy reading something off line for a change. x

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  7. Yay! Glad everything is going well.

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  8. I'm so glad things are going so well for you and your little one. It is great that you got to hear the heartbeat. I think that has been my favorite thing so far...it's so comforting.

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  9. Isn't it strange and wonderful to start feeling "normal"? And keeping your pants on is a big bonus, too! I'm at 6+ months of keeping my pants on. It's fabulous. Enjoy!

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  10. Hi Stopping by from ICLW. Congrats on your pregnancy. I hope everything goes smoothly and you survive the winter.

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