Saturday, 11 June 2011

Twiddling my thumbs...

I hope this title crosses the language/cultural barriers of my readers! But basically, this weekend is the first since finding out that I'm pregnant that I haven't had some major milestone appointment to occupy, worry and eventually, reassure me. 2 beta tests and 2 ultrasounds down and I have a weekend free of the rollercoaster of anticipation and panic, followed by relief and happiness. Of course, this doesn't mean that I can't manufacture my own rollercoaster to replace it. After pretty consistent morning sickness for the last 2 weeks, I have been feeling much better since Friday. The joy of not feeling sick is quickly replaced with the worry of symptoms waxing and waning and what that means (probably nothing in my most logical moments).

As for other symptoms, I'm still experiencing dizziness quite often, though that horrible near-fainting episode has not been repeated, thank goodness. I also seem to be randomly developing small patches of spider veins (or spider navi to give them their technical term - sounds like something out of Avatar to me) on my face. Thursday brought a small patch under an eyebrow which was odd, but I thought nothing of it. Only yesterday when I spotted a patch under my chin did I connect the dots (not literally, though that would have been quite fun) and realise that these could be the spider veins mentioned in my new, fabulous pregnancy book.  My Mum claims that she never got them during any of her 4 pregnancies even though they can be genetic. From my reading, it makes sense that they are linked to the change in my blood flow due to the demands of the baby, which is also bringing the dizziness. My Bloke is calling the baby a 'greedy bugger' for taking so much of my blood! (I should mention here that the baby will always be a boy to my Bloke until he has physical evidence to the contrary!).

This post is in danger of drifting into nothingness... basically, my symptoms are coming and going a bit and I still find that stressful. I have my first OB appointment on Thursday and, after thinking that I had mastered this positive thinking and didn't need the reassurance of extra ultrasounds, I'm now planning to ask for one if it's not offered. At 8 weeks and 4 days, there should be interesting stuff to see :)

I still feel in a weird kind of limbo - partly because I still haven't really accepted that there is a new life growing inside me. Also, because our move to Korea is on hold until the end of the 1st trimester, I feel like I'm treading water till we get to that point. Consequently I seem to be spending a lot of time on the sofa, watching bad TV. This is fine most of the time, but kind of embarrassing when our twice-weekly cleaner comes round and I let her clean around me! Though I think she's spotted the pregnancy book with the big naked belly on the front, so I hope she's cutting me some slack!


  1. it is hard not knowing anything from doctors for more than a week! My hubby thinks the baby is a boy too! Does your bloke( love that word now) hold and talk to your belly too? lol I am 8 weeks and 6 days And i also have my ultra sound on Thursday!! i am so excited nervous..all the above! OKay..five more days!!

  2. It must be really weird to have no probing or scanning or blood drawing after such a long time of having it done regularly. As you said, not having the regular reassurance must be a bit stressful, but I'm sure you'll be able to relax soon.

    It's a shame you're having to delay coming to Korea, but understandable. By the time you get here it's going to be really humid and disgusting, whereas at the moment it's just very hot. It might start raining soon also.

    If you've nothing to do (!) you could start learning hanguel though which is really easy and will be really useful.

  3. Good to hear things are alright. and that there has been no more fainting scenario.

    Ha, I feel the same sometime when our 'gardeners' comes every other week and I'm sitting around in the house. They came with the house and the rent..

  4. The waiting game never ends does it, even though it's different. I feel that I'm so grateful to have the agonising wait for 12wk scan and all the tests to see my chances of Down's S etc rather than the wait for yet another cycle. However, the rest of 2011 is still on hold, flights, dates to see family, sharing this pregnancy if the the next set of tests are ok. My part time job is keeping me sane. I hope you find some good projects in this next period of waiting. Glad to hear the fainting episode didn't repeat itself. Good luck with getting another scan around the 9 week mark, that will be great!

  5. No worrying what the cleaner thinks - you deserve to be a lady of leisure after working so hard to get to this point! Fluctuating symptoms are SO stressful. Glad you don't have to wait too much longer for some more reassurance. In the meantime, I hope you feel nice and sick!