Wednesday, 20 July 2011

Getting ready for the move...

I realise it's been a pretty long time since I've posted. I guess this is for a number of reasons, but none of them really conscious decisions. Perhaps because I can only access Blogger on our PC in our office and not on my laptop (due to the censorship in China - need special software to access blocked sites) and have been too lazy/tired/stiff to go and sit on an uncomfortable office chair rather than the sofa! Perhaps because I've been trying to stay out of my own head a bit and blogging doesn't help me with that. Perhaps because of the spate of bad news on blogs I follow recently - I've still been reading them, but my own craziness seems so unimportant and inane in comparison.

So what has been happening in my life over the last few weeks?

  • Got our screening test results back at about 12 and a half weeks and they were fine :)  Not amazingly low, but not at all bad for my age (34). This was the milestone at which we'd agreed that we would start to tell more people (including most of our family)...
  • Skip to freak out by me brought on by aches and twinges in my back, hips, belly and occasionally legs. I couldn't get the thought out of my mind that something might have gone wrong between the scan at 11+2 and the 13 week point when we were supposed to start telling people.
  • Jump to me calling my hospital and getting an 'emergency' appointment with my temporary Ob/Gyn (she deserves a whole post to herself.... and not in a good way). Everything was fine - got a quick, extra scan and all looking good :)  Growing pains in my belly eased off and I relaxed a bit.
  • Still no resolution to the pain in my back/hips - I don't know the name for this area, but it's those muscles at the bottom of your back/top of your butt. If you've been through IVF, it's the muscles where you have the IM progesterone shots! The soreness had eased off after stopping injections at 10 weeks. A week later, my Bloke and I had sex (1st time since egg collection!) and the next day these muscles were really sore. I presumed I'd used some underworked muscles but, 2 weeks later, the discomfort is getting worse. I can't lie on my back, the whole area is sore to the touch and even sitting down is uncomfortable. Have finally managed to get an appointment with a physio tomorrow, so hoping I'll get some answers then.
  • My Bloke went back to the UK for work (he's still there) and told his parents and siblings our good news. He randomly decided to tell his folks we're having a boy!! Much excitement because there are currently no boys to carry on the family name at the moment! Seriously, Men!
  • Told my Big Sis and Bruv - managed to stay calm at the odd jibe/insensitive comment from my sister, but have saved up some very honest responses that I can blame on hormones for next time!
  • On Sunday, I have a leaving lunch with about 20 friends.. still deciding whether to tell them about our pregnancy...
  • On Monday, our movers are in and we leave our house... it can't come a minute too soon because I am so sick of sweating all day with our lack of aircon (long story cut short - rats in the central air vents last winter, so I'm refusing to turn on the aircon).
  • Next Saturday, fly to Seoul!
That wasn't as brief as I'd planned! All in all, I'm doing fine. I am really trying very hard not to obsess about this pregnancy and relax and enjoy it. I know I'm not quite there, because I know my fear of telling more people is based on the fear that something will go wrong and I'll have to tell loads of people the bad news. I do know how unlikely that is now. Maybe my reluctance is due to a little niggly feeling that I might be dreaming this whole thing and people will just laugh when I tell them I'm pregnant! Oh, how I wish I had a huge baby bump already (still no sign of it - just fat and bloating still)...

Time to go before I waffle any more. I'll be off the blogosphere for a week or so between packing up our PC and getting to Seoul and the land of uncensored internet :)  Will catch up with you all from our new home!!


  1. Sorry you're in pain, but I guess it's just part of it... I have lower back pains now and then too and had them a lot as well during my first pregnancy. Regarding teaching you how to be serene... believe me, I wasn't during my first pregnancy (only at the very end I managed), every cramp, twinge or pain made me believe I was miscarrying. I guess I can only hope for you that one day you will be able to be pregnant with a second child, and then you can be serene... Because that's why I can be now. I have pretty much the same symptoms as the first time, but now I know they're normal, and no sign of impending miscarriage.
    Good luck with the move! Let others do all the work (otherwise guaranteed more cramps and pains)!!

  2. Land of *high speed* uncensored internet.

  3. So unfair that there's just no way to "relax and enjoy" after working so long and hard to get where you are. Maybe after settling in to your new home (and getting a bigger baby bump!) you'll be able to enjoy this more. Glad everything is looking great despite all the worries, pains, and stresses!

  4. Sorry, I forgot to say 'good news about the test result!' I'm so mega busy that part just went unsaid.

  5. I'm so glad that the test results have all been reassuring, but am sorry you're uncomfortable. I hope that goes away soon.

    Good luck with the move! I loved Seoul. I hope you feel the same way.

  6. Glad you survived breaking news to your siblings over the weekend. I hope the physio can get the ball rolling to sort out your pain and discomfort too x

  7. Sorry that I've been so long in commenting... great to hear that you're scan went well and hope all goes well with your move. Thinking of you xoxo

  8. congrats on the nuchal scan!
    mine is on Thursday
    and we're also planning on telling people after that - and I have the same fears that by telling people i'll jinx it and something will go wrong...

    let's not worry, both of us!!! :)

  9. hey there. just wanted to drop in and say hi and that i hope the move and pregnancy are still both going smoothly!

  10. hey, where are you? is everything ok?